I had two cop out days in a row, which IS FINE… but they also made me remember all the projects I’ve “soft-quit” — aka not quit on purpose, just kind of… stopped doing — after a couple of days of no progress.
This makes me nervous. I don’t know if it’s a legitimate kind of nervous (a warning to make a change now) or an imagined kind of nervous (doesn’t really matter and I can choose to continue whenever) but I am, regardless, nervous.
So the next day I made sure I got 20 minutes in, even though it meant staying up late after hours of driving to doodle by the light of a lamp in an Air B&B.
I was gone from home for three days during this period and after driving home I wanted to do the same thing, but I was too tired to even think about my project. I slept.
I’m not soft/quitting this time. I’m doing this 100 days. I’m doing this book.
So as I look forward to day 9 and contemplate what I want to do during the following couple of very busy days, I'm trying to challenge myself to really make time for what's important to me rather than letting life sweep me away. Being a book illustrator is important to me, and I'm done letting things get in the way of it.